Me- A Preamble

Imagine, a dark starry night…a blanket of stars cover the dark skies. Despite the unity of the dazzling stars that form this blanket, there’s always a cluster that’s astray..away from the herd..the odd ones..those that are probably alienated or those that simply chose to drift away. As a child, I would look up and always wonder about “these” stars – the most compelling or intriguing question back then was “why aren’t they accepted amidst the crowd?” As time, age and education served its purpose, the concepts of space, distance, planets and stars were well learnt. But the vivacity of my imagination refused to allow my heart to accept science for science:) even today, probably a good 20 years later yet, these are the stars that evoke emotions in me. This is perhaps, because, I always connected myself to “these” stars - distanced, secretive, warm, unusual.

My childhood revolved around fairytales, studies, concrete blocks, cars, sun, and above all, discipline. Adolescence was not too different from childhood – spent it blissfully, in a pretentious happy bubble named, Dubai. Dubai is still “home” to me though…a place where I spent my childhood..a place where my dad raised me to be the perfect girl...a place where my mom taught me to cook…a place where I learned to swim.. a place where I learned to drive..a place where my baby brother was born..a place where I made the best of friends..

However, here I am today, a struggling post grad student, in the UK, facing the realities of life. I wouldn’t say this reality of life is harsh; it’s more of a trade off between where I am poised, what my aims are…and what I’m truly good at. Sometimes, you have to pay a heavy penalty trying to reach where you want to reach, from the place you begin. When I look back today…I wish I could retrace a few steps and do some things differently.

With all this uncertainty in life right now, I sit back and think of my favorite quote “life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re gonna get” :) so here I am, awaiting my Lindt of sorts.